Hi renounced troglodyte, your feelings are there for a reason and are always real and not stupid. Your longing for a child is completely natural. When you have a child, he or she will be their own person and will make their own choices. They need to know they are valuable even when they make poor choices. You are valuable. You are part of the human race. If you know someone you think is valuable, they are human, like you. Remember you have the same value just by being human, you don't have to earn value by being 'good' or by feeling worthy or having a son. That is my opinion I TRY to live by, I hope it helps.