I don't know how to function, I don't know how to be happy, I don't know what I'm doing... I just dont know anymore.

Maybe its better for me to save everyone upset before you realize who I really am... an idiot who cant control herself and tries and fails to help everyone and a person who cant take care of her own bloody life. Maybe I should leave. Maybe I should stay. Maybe I should shut the bleep up.

Maybe I was happy before. I dont know anymore.

I'm sorry. So sorry.

edit: it is so blatantly appparent to me that I'm a selfcentred nincompoop. I dont think i'm doing this for attention but maybe I am. Maybe I should fade away into the background again. I cant help myself I cant help others.