I wasn't sure where exactly to put this, but Insurance and Finances didn't seem quite right... so here it goes.

I got a package in the mail a couple days ago. My medical records that the ministry received. I went through it all and my heart sank. I wouldn't have approved me either, if that's all I saw.

I was listening to a person talk about their chronic pain. One of the things they mentioned was that their pain was so intense all the time, that when things happened like a broken bone, people would think it was just a sprain because of her outward reaction to it. It's just her pain tolerance was so high, her reactions to serious things were... underwhelming.

I realized that must be what's been happening for me. I've been having serious mental health issues for so long (essentially my whole life), that when I describe to the mental health professionals what's going on, it just sounds "like a sprain". Something you could pop a couple Aspirins, wrap it up and get on with your day. When really I don't have a foot to stand on. I've been denied twice, and now I'm afraid that my tribunal appeal won't even go through. I can't work, I can't go to school even. I've spent 6 years trying to get my high school diploma and I still don't have it. So much for my dream of going to University. I wish I could work, have a normal, boring life. But I'm far too broken. And I don't even know HOW I'm broken. I don't even have a solid diagnosis. How can I tell someone I can't work and then not know how to say WHY I can't work. I don't know why. I try and I fall on my face, and I don't know why that happens. What can I do?