I'm sorry you're dealing with so much loss right now. I haven't been there personally, because I usually take my moods out on myself, not others, which makes my problems a little less visible to the outside world (I've always been a major shut in both mentally and physically due to moods) but we're here for you and you're welcome here.

I am also just starting a medication, geodon. I hope lithium works for you and you can build your life up again!