please please please tell me its not worth it and that it wont solve anything and that i'm going to feel foolish if I screw up. I want to so bad, its not been this bad in a long long long time I just want the anxiety and the knot in my stomach and the bad thoughts to just go away.

could be 100 days down the drain... and i'd give it up for some inner peace right now. gonna try some other coping stuff but i dunno if it will work.

help me I feel like i'm slowly drowning.