So sorry you are feeling this way & I totally get the whole how honest should I be? I struggle with that at times & am working on being as open with my team as I can-I am getting more comfortable with them & they are very supportive & last week I was able to verbalize some things I vowed would never leave my head & although I had some initial anxiety I felt much lighter afterward. I have something I've been dragging around that I also thought would never see the light of day & I think I will be able to talk to them about it soon. I still worry sometimes that if I over share I will wind up inpatient but as I am building more trust with my team I am trusting more that they will make good decisions on that if I need it. Please let us know how you're doing-you're not alone & we do care