Hi Adespota,
Your situation sounds frustrating and familiar.

I have chronic pain issues and don't react much to pain. I finally learned to say when something hurt. Sometimes, I'll even add an, "Ow!" Turns out, the squeaky wheel really does get the oil. When I've reacted, the doctors have done x-rays that show how bad my back is. Or that part of my lung collapsed.

Also, I've been hiding physical and mental symptoms since I was a child. It's hard to change that. It's also why people have been surprised when, seemingly out of the blue, I end up in crisis. It's made it hard for some people to accept that I really do have a serious mental illness.

Only thing I can think of is to be the squeaky wheel. Keep going to a T or PDoc and get them to help you access what you're actually going through.

I hope things get better for you.