***Trigger warning***

I've had depression problems since I was a small child. My parents just thought I was quiet. I think my first possible manic episode was when I tried to kill myself in my apartment my sophomore year of college, but it might have been a mixed episode I'm not sure. I'm not officially diagnosed but my pdoc is leaning toward treating it like it's bipolar based on the medications she prescribes me. She says she doesn't want to put that label on me because of all the negative things that go with it?? But I'm taking antipsychotics and they help a lot. My brain doesn't buzz so much anymore.

I think I had some hypomanic episodes in high school though.
It might be a relief to be officially diagnosed with something though. It would explain what's wrong with me.