I recently realized I am a victim of sexual abuse. Never even thought of putting it on my profile until about a week ago. As a child spent time in foster homes and a children's home where male kids would touch inappropriately, and later in middle school was attacked by an adult man who tried to rape me, but he was not successful, I got away. For some reason I have always associated only rape as sexual abuse, but the light came on in my little brain and said you don't have to be raped to experience sexual abuse. Yes I used to fantasize the way you do. I would categorize it as, being robbed of your innocence.