Got 10 hours sleep last night, no meds needed, so very very tired today, here comes the caffeine crash. Although my partner just made me a coffee.... He is extremely sweet thinking of me like that but I didnt ask and its not that good for me, I guess he just sees how incredibly tired I am and wants to wake me up a bit.

My mood is about a 4/10 today so not too bad, but the fatigue will be a challenge today. Ants invaded while we were away so we will have to get rid of them, plus the usual clean up. I have a bit of paperwork to do for my horse, I need to go see her too, she had some treatment on the weekend so I want to check out how she is feeling. I have to organise some stuff for uni. Some gardening too. We also have to get a new tyre for the bfs bike, I dont think I should drive this tired though.

I feel like I can do this stuff if I can only get passed breakfast, I am just too tired right now to contemplate it.

Partner really really really does not want me to go to hospital, he says he misses me too much. My mood is improving slightly so maybe I dont need to go, although I still feel extremely stressed, like my heart is getting squeezed and my lungs are blocked. I think it will be a real struggle staying out and a big pressure on him (he is currently watering the garden cos standing is an issue for me and then he will make us breakfast). We could do it but would we be struggling unnecessarily when I have the insurance to go to a clinic?

We're going to talk over breakfast. Sometimes its hard to keep him on topic.