I hope you don't mind me saying this but I don't think you are as apathetic as you may think. I don't think an apathetic mind would think about escape. I also see many more negatives about the human race and interaction with people but I also see positives. Its academic anyway though because we are human. Apathy is the absolute worst part of depression. At times I feel like I've lost the ability to love and to care. I hate that feeling.