I start to feel reminded of how things really are. There are no good people.

Everyone lies.

Though it starts to get a bit irritating when I realize HOW much they do. They act certain ways but only so they can gain. Selfish motives. Rejection from those I thought were friends but they found they don't really like me.

How cruel.

Though over the years I've grown my armor and try not to let them in. They would say I am better but am I really better or just growing my steel and trying to survive in a world that doesn't want me around.

People always having motives and I can start to sense the deceit right from the beginning.

A lonely world.

They all form groups and then you know how humans are they get comfortable and stick to their groups. They get comfortable insulting those they don't know or those they got to know and rejected. Boosting themselves. It's always about themselves. Even when they give charity.

Everyone likes to act warm-hearted and wise but they aren't. Am I? No. I know nothing- to always double check my thinking is how one gets into a state of the abyss. It's wise to never think of one as "the wisest or the greatest." Everyone does it though. Everyone is arrogant at times.

It gets lonely being me. Alone mentally, I feel always rejected. They reject my mind. I'm not very smart or anything but I am treated like a plague. They don't like my views on most things. I get the shallow treatment usually and always. They say I have my walls up but then they reject me. I am glad I kept the walls up so that they couldn't pierce my heart but then would they have tried to stab me there if I had let me walls down.

Usually yes. They always want to get close. Though they wouldn't have connected with you even if you had let their trojan horse in.