I hate to be the bearer of bad news (lol), but you have just taken a nice step towards finding mental balance in your life! Congratulations!! I, like many others I'm sure, completely understand the fear of getting better. As scary as living out a crappy, depressed, miserable life is, NOT living out a crappy, depressed, miserable life is even scarier! This makes no sense to me, yet, it is what I feel. It takes great strength and courage not only to admit this, but to work through this. You can do it!

If you decide to go to a therapist, maybe find one who deals with attachment issues. This type of therapist will understand the importance of providing long-term safety and trust. That might just be what you need to help you.

Whatever you do, keep taking those steps forward. The road to getting better is going to rocky and long. But it can be done! And as you move towards getting better, you will start to see how amazing life can be.

And P.S. - you better plan on getting out in that snow after the storm calms down. SNOW ANGELS!