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Originally Posted by jaciRock
Could your hindsight be all messed up? Perhaps at the time you needed (and she knew you needed) the extra time. Now it seems (to yourself) that it was mainly selfish. Maybe your perception of that time period is wrong.
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I did need it at the time, in the moment. She made mistakes in encouraging it, but I should have said no. I should have held myself back more. It made her resentful and out of her depth, and it made me frantic and more needy. If only I had said no.
If only I could have kept my fat stupid mouth shut SO MANY TIMES over the whole relationship. Why couldn't I do that? Why do I feel now like I could have tried harder to dilute all the neediness and panic?