Thread: complex PTSD
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Old Feb 16, 2015, 05:40 AM
Anonymous37913
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I was going to a clinic for treatment of complex post-traumatic stress disorder. The T would never show me my treatment plan however I was required to sign off on it blindly.

I have no friends and have never been romantically involved with anyone. I'm 57 and gay. Being gay was always a bad fit and though I've tried it, it just isn't for me. I find there to be a lot of social pressure to do destructive things. I've never been a lot of fun; I never learned how to play well with others due to my unorthodox upbringing which has ruined me. I spend all my time alone. I never smile and am socially shunned.

So, I go for treatment of c-PTSD and instead the T focuses on my love life of which there isn't one and never has been. I complain that I don't want to work on this because there is going to be no progress because I've totally given up on it. I don't like being gay and that's not going to change. I don't like gay sex and have physical problems that make it impossible. The T did not seem to know how to treat c-PTSD and instead focused solely on my sex life. My depression got worse; my c-PTSD did not get better. Finally, I stopped therapy. I'm 57, if I've never had a sexual/love relationship by now then it's not going to happen. I just want relief from the c-PTSD. Anyone know of an effective treatment? Thoughts / comments on the T? I have seen so many different T's that I've come to the conclusion that therapy does not work. It's a fraud.
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