(IG) I think this emotional wave is coming from the flashbacks you've been having, not the therapy experience. The feelings of guilt, why didn't I act differently, why couldn't I control myself and other, it's my fault-- it all is strikingly the same as common recriminations surrounding abuse. There were aspects of your therapy that reflect these feelings, but I don't think it's really about your therapy. You're not to blame in either case.