((Canyon))

There is no wrong way for you to feel, and you should be free to react to this situation however you want.

When my mother died, I grieved but later realised that as much as anything else I was grieving for the relationship I wished I had had with her. I missed her and mourned her (perhaps easier than it would have been because we had made peace with each other a few years before) but there is still a feeling of hurt that she treated me as she did.

It's weird how emotions work, it seems we can't predict what we will feel and can feel things in contradictory ways. I hope you get some better support from your friends and family soon.


Bluegrey