(((Fuzzy)))) I hope you're feeling better. I know what it's like to do and feel that way. You are such a kind person. I hope you've been able to be gentle with yourself. One thing a friend used to say to me was, "Remember when you make a mistake that you're being a perfect human being." That helped me give myself a break. Not when I'm at the place you describe but sometimes remembering that helped me keep from going there. Take good care. Annie