This isn't 100% related, but I'm diagnosed with depression and generalized anxiety disorder. I also have dermatillomania and mild trich but I'm not diagnosed with those (I'm pretty sure my GP just lumped those things in with GAD). I've had nyctophobia since I was a child, and by this I mean I sleep with the light on literally every single night because if I don't I'll have panic attacks (I've been at a point where I couldn't close my eyes to sleep without panicking). I've never been a very paranoid person and I'm very trusting but being confused about what is or isn't there scares me (not just in reference to the nyctophobia but a lot of things), even when I know it's not there. As a kid I experienced sexual abuse of some form (not from an adult, but from several other kids and it still affected me a lot). My mom has always been emotionally abusive. I feel like whenever I really talk about it I feel like I'm throwing some huge pity party for myself and that I'm not allowed to actually admit or recognize when bad things have happened to me. So I'm kind of just venting here. I've started having bouts of depersonalization when I get upset. I feel like this entire thing confused me for months and made me question everything else about myself. I know there are individual forums for most of this stuff and I'll probably check those out as well but I'm still just kind of venting.