Thank you for continuing to post, gooddolphin. This is such a chaotic stage of life for both of you, complicated by your own age difference and gender/sexuality issues. It's pretty explosive. Since your mom won't agree to letting you see a therapist, is there a LGBTQ group at your school or in your community? I think there are a lot of extra challenges to this relationship and your life that others with a similar experience can share support and understanding.

Help is out there. And you deserve it.