Hi. I hope that you will give yourself permission to be gentle with yourself and do whatever you need to to help yourself. The earplug idea sounds good to me. If you have a wy to get out of town for a while for a nice quiet drive, that sounds nice too. maybe you have someone you trust who can come over or if you have a counselor ask them what they think. The most important thing is to do what's best for you. If you feel like you'd have to force yourself to watch that might not be the most gentle thing for you. Whatever you decide, good luck!