cnb_5 Do you have a primary care doctor you can consult with ? I too grew up in a negative house-hold ( mostly criticism and passive aggression). I finally decided at the age of 35 that I was sick and tired of being sad and angry all the time. My primary care doc started me on anti-depressants and then I found a great psychiatric nurse practitioner to help me.
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