justa_seeker, Hello and welcome to PC.

I can only imagine it is a tight kind of feeling. I am sorry that you are feeling out of sorts over this. You have joined a great community of supportive folks and others will want to chime in as well.

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Best wishes here and I hope that you get things sorted out.