This is a post thats a bit selfish maybe. I am suffering for now and I need to express it. I cant put it in creative corner my favourite spot because its about me being depressed for now. I keep bursting into tears because of thinking along one branch in a tree.Its like I'm hanging on that branch but I dont want to be. I'm making that branch the main branch when it shouldnt be. My friend saw me crying at work.She discreetly asked did I have dust in my eye. Then when I mentioned the branch I was on she said she knew. It was nice of her to ask. How come friends and concerned friends are not enough for me. I feel antidepressants arent my answer right now.And the natural one "SAME" is too expensive I reckon. Ive been sitting in the sun. Eating apples.Cuddling my cat. But I cant stop being a sloth on that branch of that tree. My baby is on that branch with his vacant stare. My baby's laughing at crows,and he's feeling for the yabbadabba man in the next ward. At least hes out of the high security ward and in a ward where he can see ducks and crows. . . Im glad no one can see how much Im crying because it makes me look horrible and blotchy. luv to all you out there feeling the same as me.xxxoxxx(((hugs)))