Yeah... Sigh...

That email from stbx has my brain on overdrive. He deals with his discomfort by pushing it outside of himself, being manipulative and abusive. And by care taking, oddly enough... I never saw that before... He's trying to 'take care' of me still... Though I'm experiencing it as intrusive and manipulative and selfish. Though part of me is feeling bad for not appreciating his 'care'.

Ye gods I have a lot to talk about tomorrow with T...

I guess I really don't want to be dismissive-avoidant after all. It would make me abusive. (Please note I'm not saying being dismissive-avoidant makes people abusive in general. I just see how that happens with me and stbx, probe mostly because we're not dismissive, just trying to pretend to be.)