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Originally Posted by Imah
I have bipolar 1. I am manic more then depressive. I don't know if this is why the hallucinations are higher for me then for some others. I do experience what you are experiencing. I have had the delusional aspect of bipolar greatly reduce since starting Trileptal.
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I survive my delusional thinking by threading the irrational thought into my belief system. I don't think Doctors would suggest this as therapy though. But for me, being untreated it was survival. For me, the watchers aren't malevolent. They gave us this great gift of insight because we can handle being connected to all things, places, dimensions and understandings. Interpret less with your brain whether things are normal or not, and embrace that you are loving and not mean, and wonderful and loved and you will see nothing wants to hurt you. This is just my suggestion through the hard moments. I remember that your parent is working (a little objectively but still is) working with getting you all the help you need.
Also, the dog is trying to let you know that you are safe. Whether those things that happen are real or not, you are definitely safe. Anything that wants to hurt would have done it before you were aware what was going on. The guy in the mirror wanted a hug.  Stuff like that. Warp the world of your imagination into a happy place. That much, you CAN control.
Best of luck to us all.
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Thanks for all the advice! Actually today was very eventful because at my school, someone used my school email to send an threatening email to the whole school, so it kind of proves that people are after me :P I am not in trouble but now I am even more paranoid that my beliefs are true because of this... What should I do about this?
Also I had a ton of hallucinations last night, more and worse than any other night. One was of a demon pressing on me (or giving me a massage :P ), there was a camera in the corner of my room, a person at my window ( I am in a second story apartment), and after my mom came to sleep with me because I would not turn off my light or TV (The TV is a dark portal), a person kept leaning over my bed and staring at me... I just feel like I am going crazy...
Imah, I will definitely try to use your tips the next time I see something!
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I appreciate your help.... But even you can't save me from myself.
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