Trust...its about trusting......sometimes you have to just believe.....no one wants a dx of a mental illness but hey...it could be much worse....and the good fact is that it's treatable............cutting back on sleep and pumping up caffeine will not give you a TRUE bi-polar high anyway. I could do that myself if I wanted a HIGH and I'm not even bi-polar.......Wait the mania may come anyway.....part of the disease

Your logic is like Oh, I have diabetes...well lets make sure..let me eat 10 candy bars and not take my insulin...oh that will work....I'll see then....yes, you'll see if you live thru it!!!