Did the same thing for the same reason last winter. I thought maybe the mania I'd had before was just med-induced and maybe I didn't have a real problem. Even though the depression was clear as day, I thought it's probably only depression and nothing more, I'm just being dramatic and maybe I don't really need meds anyway.

Turns out, I do need meds because I am bipolar and my bipolar goes to a really scary place without meds. I was fine for awhile and then I went into a mania which was great at first. But then it turned on me, turned me into an absolutely evil person with so much hate and anger inside of me. It culminated with me believing that stranger could read my thoughts and that someone was trying to kill me by getting me to kill myself, I just didn't know who. That meant I was terrified of all stranger and could barely leave my house.

Yeah. Not fun.

Since then I've been tempted to stop meds again, particularly now because I want that high back. Are you sure you're not just bored with stability? I get like that. I just have a hard time being normal and prefer to be extraordinary, which mania allows me to believe. I've got to find something else to be passionate about because I don't want to continue this cycle.

Just wanted to let you know to be careful, even though I totally get where you're coming from. You never know what your brain might do to you.