Thanks for this thread it's great to see what others think about these things After spending 25 years in a terrible marriage & very miserable I want to be here a long time (yes even with all my struggles & issues) to enjoy the people I surround myself with now & there are so many places I want to visit & hike & pictures to paint etc. Both sides of my family are long lived into 90s (we may be a quirky bunch but we got the physical health gene at least). I've spent many years studying different world religions & my best guess is still I don't know. I've had encounters that have made me believe in reincarnation but don't know if that is for everybody-maybe that's why the world is so crowded now. Having lost some dear friends & 2 beloved cousins to suicide I feel life is very precious but when your MI gets so overwhelming sometimes it's hard to keep fighting. The thought of everyone dying around me while I'm left to complete a task is both overwhelming & kind of intriguing at the same time. It would be great if I have some task to do before moving on (or whatever). However there is that scientific rational part of me that thinks when it's over it's over-but that's not very exciting or romantic or dramatic-look forward to seeing what others think.