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Old Feb 16, 2015, 07:51 PM
musinglizzy musinglizzy is offline
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Thanks all. This isn't necessarily normal for her, no. She's taken a call from her daughter before. She's also walked out of my session to talk to her daughter in the waiting room. Other than that, and today's doctor phone call, nothing else like this has happened in almost 9 months of seeing her.

I guess I was a bit blindsided...and didn't mention staying later. She said "I gotta fly!" That told me there would BE no staying over.... usually by the end of session I had some sort of shut down. This time, I was just getting warmed up. I try, I really do. Sometimes it's hard to talk about things. In the beginning, she asked me more than once if my mom abused me. I said no. She's now learning that's not the case. I apologized to her today for lying about that, and she said really, it's not lying, I wasn't ready to talk about it yet. Some of the things I've had to say are utterly crazy, maybe even sick. But she's right, I already had one abuser I was willing to talk about, my mom, I was protecting her for some reason, in some ways. So finally, she had me engaged in conversation, disclosing things I never thought I would.....this is the first time I've mentioned some of these things ever. And then BOOM. Done. Typically she has to leave exactly on time because she has to pick up her daughter from school. But her daughter was home today. I felt very uncomfortable sitting in there while she was talking about personal matters concerning her daughter. Meds, treatments, etc. I almost went out to the waiting room to wait for her to be done, and give her privacy, but I was afraid she'd take that the wrong way. So I stayed, and tried hard not to listen, instead, to try to think hard about what I was going to talk about when she got off the phone. I'm not usually one to show ANY anger or frustration emotion at all. of course, I feel guilty about it, but I'm still quite hurt.