After a lifetime of thinking, I've proven to myself that I just can't trust myself, regardless how medicated I get. I'm guaranteed to never have the same opinion twice in the same moment because I'm always changing. Between all the alter opinions magnified by the bipolar duality, I'm exhausted.

How I feel in the morning is not necessarily how I'll feel that night. I've been told that I make a lousy parent, always changing my mind on punishments and my opinion on things. I try though. I'm ruled by emotion over logic, which I don't get. Logic is still ruled by emotion, it all depends on your point of view.

I can argue with myself over a decision for hours, a purchase, a path to take, or a direction to go. After a decision is made, I'm in doubt sooner than later. I'm a person torn. I think I need to flip a coin to make my decisions for me from now on.

Does bipolar tear you up also? Can you trust yourself to make a competent decision and stick to it?