I don't have severe anxiety most of the time. That got better after about 6 months but happened occasionally. Now it doesn't really happen unless I were to put myself into a situation like driving on an interstate...that feels totally out of control to me.
I think during withdrawal is when the obsessive thoughts started. I am obsessing about 'something', 24/7. It can be about what to cook, anxiety over how whatever I am cooking turns out, if I am wasting food if I mess it up...it goes on and on. Tonight it's about the bad weather, concern over my family driving on the icy roads...will the power go off, how will I deal with any problems? I don't think it is 'normal' concerns that people have. It's like I am wringing my hands constantly...but in my mind.
Another new twist is that I feel myself having tremors constantly, my hands and upper body feel like I am sitting on something that is vibrating. It is very strange and disconcerting, I think it has increased my anxiety. It will be 2 years on the 25th that I have been off klonopin. I cannot begin to understand what that stuff does to your brain and nervous system!
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