Depression pushes one towards a feeling of being a sociopath.......anxiety and panic attacks are the worst.....I have never been more afraid and down....they suck...day trading......best friend lost everything doing it....not judging......close friend is an accountant....she just sold her business...moved on to comptroller of a very successful business.....few years ahead of you...sounds like you have good friends...you just push them away......ssris do work......you sometimes have to try different combos...for some more length of time.....

best of luck.....Artie