I'm not sure that it is even that I need to find my own way to what works. I get the impression that it's just the way he runs things; we own our own therapy experience. He is not an instructor or a leader or boss or authority in any way; he is a facilitator in our growth. It is my room, my safe place, somewhere I'm always in control. Or maybe it is because I experienced csa and bullying and a bunch of other crap that messed with my head, and took away my control, and now I'm dealing with the fall out, and need a safe place for that.

Ultimately I am in control, but T is helping actually slow me down, because I'm flying ahead so fast that im actually not in control or able to handle it yet.