About a year ago i went through a hard breakup that was entirely my fault. And at first it felt like i need a replacement asap. That of course didnt go well, it didnt happen and no ones feelings were hurt. A year later this persons still on my mund and its completely annoying because i just feel sad/stupid/ and angry . Also still wouldnt know what would happen if we met. I do work with this one guy that i get along with whose new ..sorta... and i think i like him. But when i think about pursuing him, i loose interest. And this has been happening to about 3 people so far. As quick as i like them is as quick as i loose interest and they become a bore to me. I have noticed that its not only guys but overal life. I feel like i need a hobby or some exciting to do or some for excitement. Travel the world, go on an adrenaline rush. I have no idea but thats my mind set. With all that, i get sudden burts of anger for no reason or sometimes ill feel depressed. I honestly have no idea what is going on with me, what if i blow up for no reason one day. Or what if i get a reason and blow up emmensly. I have no idea how my reactions would be , since i never get angry, fight, argue or any of the sort. Siiigh this is insane. I feel like i cant even focus at school or even want to go to school. Even having friendships i dont even care about , i feel if my friends disappear then they disappear. But i also dont want that to happen. What is wrong with my head.