Real down today. I felt good for second when i started eating again. Ate a full meal instead of juicing. Sad to be not losing weight like i did before, but must eat. Really really down now again. Still not doing much with life. Life with ex was better but then not really. I wish i can go back in time but can't. I miss my dog so much today. I feel very helpless that i can't see her. She is going to be 10 this year. I have not seen her in 3 years because of my poverty. Today, i said i won't need psychiatrist that i was on waiting list, but i am not sure if i made the right decision. I know i don't need the pills so must have made the right decision.