The benefit is an outlet for my thoughts rather than texting her.
I can't stop thinking the way I do on it. Its like asking a person with ocd to stop washing their hands because they are raw and sore.
Jesus. Six months ago I would have been plunged into a deep depression and had trouble functioning. Now I get slagged off for coping as best I can while continuing to make good life choices (ie not self sabotage) and continuing to process this **** largely alone.
Well at least I know where I stand. It is clear I am too much for pc as well.
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Been trying hard not to get into trouble, but I
I got a war in my mind
~ Lana Del Rey
How many cares one loses when one decides not to be something but to be someone
~ Coco Chanel
One is not born, but rather becomes, a woman
~ Simone de Beauvoir
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