thanks for your replies guys. I survived that night, only just. Called my emergency team who told me to distract!!!!!!! Like I hadnt been tryin that already! The counselling session was ok, i think I will get on with my counsellor, she was very honest and open with me, so I think it'll be ok.

I am feeling really nervous today, have to return to work on Monday, having been off for 5 weeks. I know that cutting is not the way to get through it but it is the only way i know how Have bought myself arm warmers to cover up my arms when I go back to work, but I know the kids will ask...trouble with being a teacher I spose!