Ever since I consciously relived some of my bad csa I've been a different person. I feel angry, sadistic, few inhibitions, I don't trust people and I'm hyper sexual. I don't know how to face T who knew me as mild mannered, affectionate, punctual and cooperative. Even just 2 wks ago. Right now it seems to take an extraordinary effort to feel just a little compassion for people. I'm afraid I'm gonna go there and just start manically laughing at everything she says.

Do T's experience this sometimes? Clients becoming a whole different person? I know I can't just blame my trauma but right now this is who I am and I can't help it. I was NEvER an angry person and yet now I just have this bottomless rage inside me.