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Originally Posted by ForeverLonelyGirl
I obsess/worry about the fact that I just am so mentally abnormal. My family tells me that since I went off klonopin after 23 plus years that I am much clearer and "act" normal. Well I sure feel totally abnormal, more than ever. I don't know if I have just learned to be dysfunctional or what. I am told that I probably could function much more normally than I think I can. That is confusing to me.
Recently I learned about primarily obsessional disorder, and it fits me to a tee!
Primarily Obsessional OCD - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Of all the disorders that I have been wrongly or rightly diagnosed with, I am surprised this one has never come up. It seems to be one of my major problems. I certainly have NO peace of mind and it makes my depression way worse.
I really want help badly but cannot get it, maybe I just feel defeated. My past mental health experiences were very bad and the one good therapist I had is unavailable to me due to financial and other reasons. I see people getting help daily from Dr. Phil and it makes me wonder why I cannot be one of the lucky ones that gets REAL help. I have written to him many times but get no reply! I really, really do want help. I don't think I could take going to another therapist that would let me down, it's happened a lot. That is a serious let down that is fairly devastating to me.
I have been slammed before for saying that I do not feel at all supported here, but I just don't. I try to be accepting and reply to people but I know that I am not good at helping anyone else here. All the miserable suffering people here is just overwhelming to me. |
Well, number one, I don't expect any replies.
I had a psychiatrist tell me some pretty wicked stuff, and meanwhile, my therapist was totally cool.
I am pretty used to disappointment as it concerns doctors and therapists and health in general. They throw pills at you and dismiss. Or listen politely and dismiss. They have jobs. That make money. That's how I choose to see it. It's much better than taking it personally.
Still, I feel your frustration and anxiety over the situation. I just have no solution. For me, it's find another doctor.
Think of it this way. (I do because I have been a carpenter.)
If you want your house built and you have plenty of money, well then, you can take your pick of the best builders. If you are on a budget, you might have to take a risk on a lower bid.
Sadly, usually, you get what you pay for.
I am paying nothing. And getting nothing.