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Originally Posted by JustALostCause
Im 16 , Male and 5 foot 10 inches and 150 lbs.Not sure why that would matter but yeah.I can never remember being into school at all.Even at a young age I had no interest.I remember my mom always trying to get me into the IEP Program at school because she though something was wrong with me.It bothered me so much at a young age and still bothers me today.Feel as if Im labeled as being a "Special Education Student".It always made me feel as if I was less then the normal kids.I never got into the IEP Program at a young age.They said I didn't need it.They were confused how I could not need it but yet be a failing student at such a young age.In the 8th grade my parents decided to try to get me it again as it would help me get my diploma to go to high school.I passed it, Getting the IEP and going onto high school.It really discouraged me.Felt stupid.Fought with my mom telling her Im not a retard and etc.Which was a bit too far but thats what I felt like saying at the time.Anyway Im now failing high school and in the 11th grade but have the amount of credits need to pass as a freshman.Technically its IMPOSSIBLE for me to graduate in time or even a year later.I had to get re-evaluate for my IEP This year and got it again.The School Psychologist the one who gave me the IEP test was asking me questions about what I do and what I want to do.Just told her I didn't care.She wanted me to go to meetings people have in school and I told her I didn't want to and refused to go.She asked If I would consider going to a therapist I told her I might.Parents never sent me to one and Im okay with that.She told my parents later on she thinks I might be depressed and have ADD.I believe I could have ADD as Im always thinking about something completely irrelevant
to what someones talking to me about.Seems more like daydreaming I dont know.But its ALL the time.She told me my last IQ test wasn't given to me right when I originally took it 3 years before.She said my IQ was 10 points higher.Still a 85.Which is pretty stupid from what I know.Lately I just don't care much at all and its been for years it seems.I just feel sort of like a ghost.I waste most of my time playing video games or watching youtube videos on my computer.Another issue I have is that I have a hard time talking to people I just meet.Always feel like Im not going to be liked.Constantly nervous.I always think everyone is talking about me behind my back in a negative way.Something thats happened to me in the last couple of years is I can't shake someones hand anymore.My hands get really sweaty as soon as Im about to shake someones hands.I always try to avoid a interaction involving a handshake for that reason.I just feel like I dont know what to do at this point.Im just stupid.I don't grasp anything easily and I just have a hard time with everything it seems.Losing friends it seems like Because im distancing myself away from them.Not even sure if they are really true friends.Not that I have many because I really dont.What do I do ?
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First of all, screw the tests. They are biased. If it's good, fine, believe what you will. If it's bad, doubt it and kill it.
Let nobody tell you whether or how intelligent you are. NOBODY. EVER.
Now, to get a little personal. I have a relative that was in special ed. He is my half brother. I didn't know this when I was young. Thought he was a cousin. (Big Secret - 60's total crap).
I grew up with him. He was 3 years older than me. He was held back in 5th grade. So I was 2 years back. They kept saying he had a learning disorder.
Ok. So I learn Dungeons and Dragons. This would be 7th grade, 1981. Two years later, I am a freshman in high school.
My half brother was in special ed at one high school, and I a freshman at another. I taught him to play D&D. I can tell you from personal experience that his learning ability was just FINE.
WHEN HE WAS INTERESTED.
This man, my brother, gained a grasp on D&D so fast it blew me away. He learned faster than I did. I being the one with the great test scores and all that. I was floored.
I had to readjust my thinking of my brother on the fly. He became a Dungeon Master. He created awesome worlds for us to play in. (I got sick of being DM and decided to teach him - because I wanted to play, and I knew he could pull it off with flying colors.)
This man is nobody's fool. Yet his test scores say otherwise. This man is eminently teachable, when he wants to learn.
Don't let teachers or test scores or classes tell you anything. Don't let them buy property in your head. Do the best you can at whatever it is you decide to do.
That's it/
