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Originally Posted by Adespota
I wasn't sure where exactly to put this, but Insurance and Finances didn't seem quite right... so here it goes.
I got a package in the mail a couple days ago. My medical records that the ministry received. I went through it all and my heart sank. I wouldn't have approved me either, if that's all I saw.
I was listening to a person talk about their chronic pain. One of the things they mentioned was that their pain was so intense all the time, that when things happened like a broken bone, people would think it was just a sprain because of her outward reaction to it. It's just her pain tolerance was so high, her reactions to serious things were... underwhelming.
I realized that must be what's been happening for me. I've been having serious mental health issues for so long (essentially my whole life), that when I describe to the mental health professionals what's going on, it just sounds "like a sprain". Something you could pop a couple Aspirins, wrap it up and get on with your day. When really I don't have a foot to stand on. I've been denied twice, and now I'm afraid that my tribunal appeal won't even go through. I can't work, I can't go to school even. I've spent 6 years trying to get my high school diploma and I still don't have it. So much for my dream of going to University. I wish I could work, have a normal, boring life. But I'm far too broken. And I don't even know HOW I'm broken. I don't even have a solid diagnosis. How can I tell someone I can't work and then not know how to say WHY I can't work. I don't know why. I try and I fall on my face, and I don't know why that happens. What can I do?
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Oh wow. I am so much in the same boat. I am helpless. I filed for disability, was denied. Appealed. Was denied. Now I applied for an administrative appeal, during which I am supposed to be able to speak. Nothing for, oh, 8 months now. Not a letter. Nothing.
It's all about documentation. Period.
I have had issues with past doctors, so I stopped going to see them. I have no documentation. I have to go through the new insurance here in the U.S. and accumulate such documents.
How to do this? I have no clue. When I am around people, I tend to under emphasize what problems I am having. Doctors included. I get all stoic. I tell them what's wrong, but they don't ever get to see a whit of pain or anguish on my face.
They don't believe me. I'm sorry, but I will not act under any condition. However, I feel as if I am acting by not expressing my feelings/pain. It's a problem.
The eventuality for me is homelessness. I see people on the streets and I know that I could be that person soon. I have been there before. But I was in my late teens. Now I am in my 40's.
Documentation or a card board box here.