I woke up this morning got ready, and everything. Laid back down trying to get a little more rest, but I can't stop thinking. Thinking about I can't do this. I already miss too much school. When I went back Thursday, yes, I was lost, yet determined to catch up and pass. I know I can, yet I can't. I'm thinking about withdrawing, but if I do I will be under academic suspension for a year. That can be a year for me to heal. I can't do this right now especially when I'm not well. I need to get better. And hey, I can just get a certification for something. Because right now, I don't want to go to college then again I do. I feel like people will judge and be like "You're a college drop out!" Well, it's better than being a high school drop out, I suppose. My family were determined that I will go to college. " Jessica is so smart! She can be a doctor!" In fact, I don't even know what I want to be. I'm so indecisive about everything. I'm so scared of my family because they will be disappointed, but I can't. Not right now.

I don't know what to do.