My best friend from childhood passed away yesterday due to a heart attack. He had been sick with bronchitis and was having a hard time breathing. Yesterday morning he called 911, but the time they got there he was in need of a defibrillator. They got him to the hospital but they could not revive him. I just lost my husband a little over a year ago and this is bringing back my grief for him back as strong as it was when he first passed away. Now I feel alone as ever. I don't have a lot of friends so I am also fearful of being totally alone. I'm now having irrational fears that someone in my family and even my cats are going to die soon even though no one is sick. I guess I am in shock because this was so unexpected. I also feel guilty because the night before he died, he came over and I told him if he was still sick the next day I was going to take him to the doctor whether he liked it or not. I can't get it out of my mind that if I took him to the ER that night, he would still be alive. Just wanted to vent. Thanks for listening