Those are very good questions, I´ve never thought of it this way before. When thinking about those women having sex or if they don´t I´m not really sure about the specific reason to why I think about it. Perhaps if I know they´re single I can compare myself to them a little in that respect that perhaps they´re also having sex "with themselves". Of course I can´t know if they´re seeing someone even if they live by themselves but still.

Some part of me also have the feeling that it´s a bit sad if they live by themselves and I don´t know if they went through a divorce and now they´re alone. Then, it´s not only thinking of them having sex or not but I also think of them living a lonely life. I thought this way about my ex T for example, sometimes, I don´t know why, I got the impression she could be a bit lonely. I know she lived by herself.

I don´t think it has to do with reassurance as I can´t feel reassured as my thoughts are only based upon speculations and fantasy. To feel reassured I´d have to know for sure about those women having sex or not and of course I don´t know that.

The thoughts are very frustrating even if I don´t have them all the time.