I can't afford therapy. all I can do is look up at home tutorials but it hurts too much.

I'll ask my ortho for both. I'm so tired of dealing with nonstop pain. I just sit here and cry because I hear voices 24/7 on top of not being able to use my dominate arm and it constantly hurting 24/7. It makes my depression so much worse and then I feel like the doctors are just looking at me as a drug seeker because I get 120 2mg Xanax and 60 10mg Valium a month and all doctors give me the same look. One doctor told me "no legit doctor would ever prescribe that much."

It's kinda making me suicidal.