I'm also 19, and also have a family that doesn't understand my illness.
My parents are gone (they passed away). My brother harasses me on Facebook saying how I was in the nuthouse. My aunt tells me to just get over it. When I lived with my brother and his wife, I never tell them what's going on because I knew they wouldn't understand. I had an episode when I was 14 with them. I was delusional. I believed a demon was controlling my body. They were concerned at the time and took me to the hospital. Afterwards, they told me to stop my medicine. They said I faked it for attention. Now, why would I fake that? I was scared for my life. I moved out in July of last year with my boyfriend. I went back to the hospital in December. I made the mistake of telling my family about my suicidal issues, and they blame me for being irresponsible and they think my boyfriend is the reason. My boyfriend is actually the only one who understands because his mom is bipolar. His family is more of a family than mine. I think the only one in my family that understands is my sister but I hardly talk to her because she's always busy. Now I know next time I have a problem to not turn to my family because they don't believe me. They don't understand. If I go to the hospital, I know not to tell them. Life is so much better once I left my family, but I do still have some problems with them. I cry a lot because I do wish my family would be more understanding. It's horrible to not have a supportive family. I posted about this not too long ago. It's under 'When family isn't there' or something like that. If you need some support you can talk to me. I'm sorry for the rant, but I'm really upset with my family. I call them out on it and they get upset and say "Quit throwing us under the bus" ....well I wouldn't if they were more supportive!