Bipolar,
You have been interfering in my life since I was a teen. You talked me into crazy situations & to take ridiculous chances & risks. No one has ever manipulated & mind#%@$%* me the way you have. When I was 18 you talked me into saying yes to a marriage with someone I had known for a month & they were 10 years older than me. I wasted 25 *&#@!% years of my life in that mess. You have manipulated me into quitting jobs on the spur of the moment leaving flaming bridges behind me. You have kept me up for days and with your racing, lying thoughts swirling through my poor brain. Any horrific embarrassing time in my life you were right there pushing all the right buttons. You have gotten me hurt & almost killed many times by severely screwing around with my judgement. You caused me to ruin my credit, file bankruptcy, have my car repossessed, ruined friendships & hurt people all while telling me go ahead & do it it's ok-you'll get away with it. I loathe what I have done while under your influence. But guess what you @#!%$! bully-you're not in charge anymore-I am. I have an absolute arsenal of coping skills to blast you into the stratosphere, a loving & supportive husband & daughter, an amazing mental health team & medication to end your reign of terror. #@!% off bipolar-I hate you & although I may struggle you will NEVER take over my life again. You pathetic loser.
Sincerely,
Turtlesoup
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Bipolar Disorder
Depression
Generalized Anxiety Disorder
OCD
PTSD
Insomnia
Chronic Pain
Prozac 30mg daily
Buspar 10mg three times daily
Propranolol 10mg three times daily
Currently titrating up Lamictal daily
Ambien 5mg prn
Trazodone 50mg prn
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