finally got my blood work done: results..pdoc called me the same day because of toxicity levels two high...so my dosage is lowered..and got 10 days of sleeping pills to get me back to a normal sleeping scheadule..another blood test to do in two days and a follow up soon after.

Also took time to go see a gp for physical stuff, got 3 referrals for that, one all done waiting for results..

I've rested and took care of me.

Today was take care of mom day..it was the cancer center with the final treatment verdict..I just got home and I'm mad..yup...mad because the process is going so slow and still there is so much we don't know...I can't stand not knowing, not being able to prepare it drive me up the walls. the doc wanted to start her treatments next week..but no social worker was yet involved to help me organize for her to be with someone for all her needs...the doc just said, ok then it will be in two weeks....and now..this means what..two weeks to move her, where, what kind of establishment...ahhhhh I just really really feel like yelling to say that the administrative system is sooooooo horrible...6 chemo treatments thats all...every 3 weeks...she's living alone in an apartment..am I suppose to find a room somewhere, or an apartment with services...am I suppose to be the one to tell her..all the ****** things...ahhh I feel so lost...

finally, all this said, I walked in my house and know that I must control feeling like this because my partner has had enough of me being crabby all the time..so there you go, this is my time out..

ahhh also, I subscribed to a cancer community forum...and overtime I try to log in...I can't so right now it's frustrating..silly mac computer should remember my log in stuff..I just don't have the patience to fix any of this..

so now I'll take 15 minutes to see my partner talk briefly about my day and hers and than, I'm out the door I need to go for a big long walk.