It sounds like you are searching for empathy. Since this is an area of concern for you maybe you are looking to those you admire and wondering if they share some of the same behaviors & thoughts; maybe so you could feel comforted by not being alone in your behaviors & thoughts... or possibly to learn from them. Maybe you are trying to decide if you maintain your current way of life will you be content in the future or do you need to make some changes.

I don't know these are some of the things that came to my mind. I do think you are a kind person to be thoughtful of others, for example being concerned that they may be lonely.